“Numb. I feel numb.” I hesitantly shared those words with a friend a couple of years ago. I didn’t want to admit it, but I was finding difficulty in feeling…anything. I was shocked when my radio colleague friend sad, “Me too.”
We shared stories of things that used to give us all the feels: a listener sharing how God was working in their lives, a song lyric that hit us so deeply we cried, serving the poor in villages around the world, etc. Now, it seemed, that very little ever impacted us, brought us to tears, to joy, or to any honest raw emotion at all.
We wondered how many other of our CCM industry friends could relate?
I’ve been on a journey to discover the remedy for “numb” for my own soul. I don’t want to settle for “unaffected.” “cynical.” “calloused.”
“You have made known to me the path of life. In your presence is fullness of joy.” Psalm 16:11
It may sound simplistic. But the more time I spend alone, with God, the more tender my heart becomes. I feel alive. To Him and the world around me.
When I neglect to spend time with Him and instead chase after other things, even really good things, I get exhausted. Irritated. Closed off to Him and the world around me.
I pray that God would tenderize our hearts this year like never before. I pray that we, as industry leaders, would spend even more time in His presence. It will change who we are and what we do. We don’t want to be numb to His Spirit, His heart or the world around us.
Numb no more,
Sandi Brown
President of JOY FM & BOOST RADIO in St. Louis
