“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven.” – Matthew 5:3
Christian radio professionals have a wonderful opportunity – we can, and often do, speak hope, encouragement and truth into people’s lives on a daily basis. What’s even more incredible is that we regularly do these things even when we are feeling hopeless, discouraged and dishonest. If I can be direct for a moment – it’s a good thing to remember that God uses imperfect people to work through the details of His perfect plan. Therefore, feeling emotionally at odds with your mission doesn’t make you a hypocrite. It makes you human, and puts you in the good company of doubters like The Apostle Paul, Mother Theresa, CS Lewis, Anne Lamott, John Calvin, Martin Luther, Charles Spurgeon, Bono, and … well, you get the idea. The fact that they struggled throughout their life does nothing to diminish the power of their message. In fact, for me, it makes it even more powerful: in their humanness, they still impacted people through teaching, writing, music and serving – all while facing moments of darkness.
Therefore, don’t be afraid to be honest about your pain, disappointment and apathy. Yes, there will be crusaders who will drop Christian Clichés and Bumper Sticker Bible Bombs on you. Yes, you need to keep certain issues confidentially between you and your leadership, accountability partner or counselor to protect yourself and your family. Yes, there are times when it is indeed right to step away from ministry to deal with serious matters. However, in most circumstances, when you begin to believe that because you’re wounded, searching or wrestling, you are somehow disqualified, you’ve stopped listening to the Holy Spirit, and have instead started entertaining other, misguided voices seeking to stop the impact you are about to have by pouring out your heart into your audience.
In conclusion, I ask: “what do you REALLY believe?” We say things like “work as though it’s all up to you, but pray as though it’s all up to God.” However, I wonder if we actually think it’s all up to God; do you really believe He is the provider? I know I struggle with this burden. I regularly feel like without me, everything will fall apart. It can be a form of paralysis, and the cause of exhaustion. The truth is much simpler. Your Nielsen ratings, your Sharathon goals, or whatever your metric for success is, are fully in the hands of God. Your best, even when you are weak and wounded, is good enough for a God who looks at the heart. You have permission to be human, and your audience will love you even more than they already do. They’re fighting the same demons you are, and also feel just as alone as you do, until you opened up your life in a relatable, vulnerable fashion, and then reminded them on the radio about a great truth Jesus promises, even when (especially when) we’re weak, weary, wounded, wasted and wanting: “Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.”
GM at 88.7 The Cross & CMB Gold Member